Tuesday - 7:04am
i kind of feel a little disgusted with myself. i've been eating alright, but i can't seem to get in the groove of exercising. Over the weekend, i took two two-mile walks, but i didn't do anything yesterday. i know i make excuses that i work long hours, i don't have time, etc...but i can't make excuses anymore if i want to make changes. If i really want to change my life, excuses are not going to cut it anymore.
3:48pm
i'm beginning to wonder if i should be so diligent about the "numbers." Counting calories, weighing myself, etc. Part of me is wondering if that is actually hindering my progress. i almost feel like it's a crutch - i can eat whatever i want, as long as i stay within the prescribed number of calories. This change isn't about numbers for me - i really have no "goal weight" or anything. So why am i putting so much emphasis on it? i know it's important information, but...is it being helpful in actually changing my HABITS? i don't know. And then, of course, i wonder if that's just me trying to justify not keeping track anymore because i feel like it's too much work. Meh. =(
Wednesday - 10:31am
Darrin and i went for another walk last night, and i had a really good salad for dinner. That helped me feel better about how things were going. i did weigh myself just out of curiousity this morning, and i was at 257. Not bad, really. i need to think of a really good reward that i can give myself when i hit 30 pounds. i think i want to wait until i hit and maintain 30 pounds - maybe for a week? And then reward myself. It's only 4 more pounds, and Darrin and i are going walking again tonight.
i heard a song on the radio on the way into work this morning (at the asscrack of dawn) that said "You love me, but you don't know me..." That kind of got my mind wandering. i don't know that i could answer the question of "Who are you?" i've got a few general ideas, but i don't have specific answers as to who i am. It also made me wonder who i am to other people. Anyway - random thought.
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Who you are to me? I immediately got a song in my head. *smiles* It's one of my favorite songs.
Train - Meet Virginia lyrics
She doesn't own a dress
Her hair is always a mess
If you catch her stealin'
She won't confess
She's beautiful.
Smokes a pack a day
Wait that's me, but anyway
She doesn't care a thing about that, hey
She thinks I'm beautiful.
Meet Virginia
She never compromises
Loves babies and surprises
Wears high heels when she exercises
Ain't that beautiful?
Meet Virginia
Well she wants to be the queen
And she thinks about her scene
Pulls her hair back and she screams,
"I don't really want to be the queen!"
Daddy wrestles alligators
mama works on carburetors
Her brother is a fine mediator
For the president.
Here she is again on the phone
Just like me; hates to be alone
We just like to sit at home
And rip on the president.
Meet Virginia
Well she wants to live her life
And she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back and she screams,
"I don't really want to live this life!"
She only drinks coffee at midnight
When the moment is not right
Her timing is quite
Unusual
You see, her confidence is tragic
And her intuition magic
And the shape of her body,
Unusual
Meet Virginia
I can't wait to
Meet Virginia,
Yeah.
Well she wants to be the queen
And she thinks about her scene
Well she wants to live her life
And she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back and she screams,
"I don't really want to be the queen!
I, I don't really want to be the queen!
I, I don't really want to be the queen!
I, I don't really want to live this..."
Does that help any? *hugs and laughs softly, humming that song that will be stuck in my head all night now*
i hope that you are having a BLAST on your vacation!!! -smiling-
Miss you hon. Hope you're doing good and hope to see you soon! *licks your cheek*
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