i opened up a new post, and now...i don't know what to say.
i feel like i need to punish myself. And it makes me sad...sad because i shouldn't punish myself...and sad because i'm the only one that can.
i feel like...god, this will open a can of worms, but hey, if you can't expose yourself on a blog, where can you?...i feel like i need to starve myself. i feel a great, gaping hole inside me, and i feel like every part of me should feel the same. Funny...you'd think that i would feel like eating everything in sight to try to fill that hole.
Little Big Update
6 years ago
4 comments:
You are probably familiar with the fact that it sounds like you're an emotional eater. I found an article at the Mayo Clinic:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/weight-loss/MH00025
"If you give in to emotional eating, forgive yourself and start fresh the next day. Try to learn from the experience, and make a plan for how you can prevent it in the future. Focus on the positive changes you're making in your eating habits and give yourself credit for making changes that ensure better health."
I'm the same way, an emotional eater- I think some of us are so emotionally sensitive that we actually "self-medicate" with food to numb ourselves. But that's where the problems start. I think it's a really hard mindset to get out of, but I think you have to try to think more positively, and learn to be kinder to yourself.
Here's a couple of articles from WebMD:
http://www.webmd.com/diet/emotional-eating
http://www.webmd.com/diet/guide/emotional-eating-feeding-your-feelings
and from WebMD, I'm not a big Dr. Phil fan, but I like what he says here:
http://www.webmd.com/diet/dr-phil-ultimate-weight-solution-what-it-is
and especially this part: "Your Circle of Support: "Weight loss is not a do-it-yourself deal," he writes. "If you expect to lose weight and keep it off, you must build and nurture relationships that affirm and uplift you in life-changing ways. There is strength and power in support."
I believe that you can't focus on the food alone, and can't look at food as the enemy. It's just fuel. And I know it's hard, I struggle with it too- but I try to be hopeful and positive about myself and life in general, and I've found that it really does help with one's peace of mind. *s
I'm here for you, hon. And I know others are too.
This may sound odd, but it works for me, and this is probably why i stay slim or as slim as i choose to be. We all love to eat. Who doesn't. But, i find that if i can "control" what i eat and when then i am winning. Yes control.
We all like to have some form of control in our lives. So this is one area i feel we can.
So if you look at that whole pizza, and think...i can eat pizza, but i can't have the whole pizza pie. i am then taking the control to eat 2 slices, only, then i am done. Just two. The rest is leftovers, or i toss it out.
I find that if i can control what goes in my mouth i win the battle.
Ditto on what aisha said! -wise-
And if you/or i fail one day on that control, i know that tomorrow i can pick up that control and start fresh the next day. -smiles-
Anyways, i am here if you need me.
Always,
-paris
Starving yourself is not the way to go, though I understand where you're coming from. It's true you need to take control. I think you're in a position right now where you believe you're not in control.
You need to go back to what you were doing: eating right and exercising. I know, sweetie, it's easier said than done. I understand that. But you're special and you're strong and you can do it. I believe in you. *hugs and kisses*
Iron Budokan
Emotions only exist when you choose them to exist. Emotions should be secondary.Your mind is in control. Therefore, you can control anything you want within yourself.
Post a Comment