into the becoming

Foods eaten: 1 banana, 1 1/2 cup serving cottage cheese, 1 turkey cutlet, 1 1/2 serving green beans, 1 salad with dressing, 1 chicken breast.

Total caloric intake: 530

Exercise: 30 minutes on bike, officework, 1/2 mile walk

Calories burned: 2498

Current weight: 267



6:49am

PMS begins. *ack* i had so many cravings last night. Right now all i want are pancakes. And macaroni and cheese. *stomp* Stoopid female crap.

Otherwise this morning, i'm feeling pretty good. i stayed off the computer last night and watched American Idol and House, and went to bed early. i also sent Nate a congratulations card because he's doing really well in his classes, and i know it's nice to get a boost once in awhile.

11:51am

i've been thinking about lyric - wondering if she'll get in touch with me. i know that she feels that she has a lot of reasons to be upset with me, but if she'd just talk to me, maybe i could help her understand. i also know she's got a lot of other stuff going on right now, so i'm just...being patient. i wonder how often we'll talk now that Gor isn't involved...guess we'll see.

4:24PM

Something is going on over at the Oil House. They just evacuated all of our guys from there (which, i have to say i'm really proud of the way the supervisors handled it with only radios to communicate with) - i haven't heard what yet. That just scares me. If the Oil House goes boom, the office i'm in sits too close - with the amount of hexane that's in the Oil House, i'll be blown to smithereens.

What am i doing here again?

Beyond that...one thing that i've noticed lately is that whenever i think i'm hungry, i pause and ask myself if i'm -really- hungry. i never realized how often i ate when i was just bored. Lawls does that make me feel gross. i can just picture myself staring dumbly at nothing, shovelling food in my mouth. *shudders* Jesus. i seriously can't believe how much i've changed in such a short amount of time. i guess all it takes is a wake-up call...except that i had about 5 wake-up calls at once. If i stop to think about it, i'm amazed that i'm keeping up without freaking right the fuck out. i must be ready for it, otherwise i'd be panicking hardcore.