into the becoming

6:55am

Last night i finally got to see midori - poor thing is working her tail off. It was so great to talk to someone who understood me. i heart midori! she really is such a positive influence, her presence is very calming and soothing to me. she's such a wonderful, beautiful person, a really gorgeous slave. i want to be midori when i grow up. =)

Yesterday was...oy. i got really, really tired and really irritable - mostly because i've had my period for 2 weeks. i don't think it's because of my lifestyle changes, because my period was normal before. It all changed when i got sick, so i'm thinking that maybe the antibiotics had something to do with it. Either way, i wish it would quit. It was weird, i had my period normally, and then a day and a half or two days later, it started all over again, with the cramps and heavy flow and everything.

Okay, raise your hand if you were grossed out by that. heh.

So, i left work at 4 and went home. i grabbed Subway for dinner on the way home, because i was just not in the mood for cooking at all - but i did really good, actually. i had a Turkey Breast wrap with American cheese and light mayo, a package of chips ("Light" Lays), and a lemonade. All-together, it ended up being 350 calories, and i was well under my 800 limit for the day. It wasn't the best choice, i know - but i'm okay with it.

i actually went to bed at about 6:30 last night. Got up for a little while to talk to midori, and ended up falling asleep about 9. i was watching a TLC show about conjoined twins, and the show that was on after that was the "I Eat 33,000 Calories A Day" show. Sooooo, i turned it off. Didn't really wanna see that. Again. Those shows are helpful to me, but i get so upset by them, and i really didn't need that last night.

i feel alright this morning, so hopefully the irritability is gone.

3:22pm

So tired. i feel completely drained. And i don't have any work to distract me at the moment. i've had a handful of M&M's. =( But i'm not bitch-frog again...just super tired.