into the becoming

Foods eaten: 1 banana, cottage cheese, 1/2 chicken breast, 3 "mini" pickles, olives, 1 cup soup, 1 serving Wheat Thins crackers

Total caloric intake: 740

Exercise: Office work, 30 minutes on bike

Calories burned: 2321

Current weight: 262

7:03am

i made the right decision...i feel good about it, but i still feel like i've failed. Like i'm somehow less because i can't handle that.

Of course - logically i know that's stupid, because i'm not sure anyone could handle that. But still. Defeatist frog.

Anyway.

8:36am

21 pounds. i'm almost halfway to my goal for the entire year, and i've done it in 4 weeks. i have a feeling that the rapid weight loss was just loosing the water weight - which is why it came off so quickly. i think i'll start slowing down, going at a steadier pace now. Still thinking about increasing my exercise, but i want to be careful and not hurt my body.

1:43pm

Got to talk to lyric this afternoon, which was nice. =) she told me some...interesting things. i also told fish about my decision yesterday...i think she feels bad, like she wasn't supportive enough, but when i told her i was looking for a dose of reality, and that's exactly what she gave me.

Apparently, i still have a lot of things to work on. S'okay. If i didn't, i'd probably be dead.